This has not been in vain

An intimate, recognizable and sometimes painfully honest story about how the past has an impact on the present - and about the moments when you realize that, in the midst of the chaos, you may already be closer than you think.

At the age of thirty, Julie feels the ground beneath her feet disappearing. At the psychologist's she discovers how old memories and beliefs have unnoticed their way into her life. How long can you wear a backpack without knowing what's actually inside? Which thoughts are really yours and which have you inherited without asking? And how do they affect your friendships, relationships and work?

In This has not been in vain Julie looks for the origins of those thoughts and for ways to travel lighter. She writes about therapy and relapses, but also about awkward dates, the power of friendships, swimming in ice-cold water and her love for Parma ham.